Mmm^^*

Currently a beautiful 70 degrees in Blue Bell
Definitely a day for open windows and a Kumbaya-tree-hugging excursion to my backyard.

You got me all jittery, sayin' a million words a minute...Starbucks.
Seriously gotta think about laying off the coffee first thing in the A.M.
I was reading so fast I didn't even know I was reading...although that's a reoccurring issue since I'm prone to daydream only about a million times day...

Indulge: "Behind the Scenes at the Museum" by Kate Atkinson
*Highly recommend!


"Jesus knows how to party. He makes his own wine" - Dale from Greek

My Eyes

The very sight of a little girl in a pale yellow patent raincoat, a cupcake, the color of a hanger, soaked fallen leaves smashed against the pavement, spaghetti sauce-stained lips...

...the lonely cloud, chubby rain, little squinty eyes, gaping gooey eyes, grotesque calloused hands, the rusty nail peeping out from weathered wood, a squirrel's cheeks stuffed with goodies to take home, baby feet, baby hands, baby anything, ginormous pizza, steam from my coffee, steam on my glasses, my grandma's loose earlobes, my daddy's boastful belly...the lingering remains of a homeless man--his abandoned blanket and an old Tastykake wrapper...

Profundity

The struggle with limited time is timeless.

And...I miss my crayons.

"But there is an influence in the light of morning that tends to rectify whatever errors of fancy, or even of judgment, we may have incurred during the sun's decline, or among the shadows of the night, or in the less wholesome glow of moonshine." -N. Hawthorne, Rappaccini's Daughter










*PS (5:23am) I'm a sleepy mess and this is what I typed in my paper unconsciously:

"Hawthorne incorporated this piece with marshmallows, do it! HAHA it is..."-Ellen Hwang

...AHAHA can I quote myself?!...sure I can! this is MY blog!

...yeah...so I definitely fell asleep thinking about fluff n' nutter =( and thought I was having a conversation with SOMEONE... =(

Mint Chocolate Chip Ice cream, Old Friends, & Computers

Top 5 Ice cream:
1. Baskin Robbins- Mint Chocolate Chip
2. Zwallens-Vanilla
3. Haagen-Dazs Coffee
4. Coldstone- Banana
5. Hershey's- Cookies N' Cream

I wanted to reward myself today for getting all my CIS HW done, but I completely failed because I am computer illiterate and impossibly impatient with anything that has to do with artsy software (why can't they just let me use a frigging pen and draw on the screen...VOILA~ I'd have you a masterpiece website with all your deepest desires...).

I've had my eye on Baskin Robbins Mint Chocolate Chip Ice Cream ever since school started. Sadly, making a left turn on 73 & Butler takes too much time and effort...so I always tell myself that AFTER class, I'll get me some of that good stuff...*sigh*...never happens...UNTIL TODAY!!! Although I couldn't reward myself for completing my HW assignment, I justified my little guilty pleasure with the fact that my head hurt from Dreamweaver and that I needed something delicious to remedy it ^^* teehee!

Hmm...
Old friends...No, not the friend whom you haven't heard from in awhile, but the kind of friends that you probably will never see ever again. Not because you don't want to but because you have no means of reaching them.
So...I started a mental list of all the people I could think of that I have no means of finding them. All I remember are their first names
-Lisa (6-7)
-Wendy (5-7)
-Billy (K)
-Philip (Pre-K)
-Samantha (Pre-K)
-Jimmy (K-2)
-Gerri (3)

...Hmm, I thought there were more...but I guess that's it. HA.
Not as profound as I thought it would be. Anyhoo~ Maybe they will find this blog...HAHA =)

uhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh...
I wanted to blurb about how much I hate computers, but then realized how sadly ironic it would be for me to complain about how much I hate computers ON a computer.
So...for the moment, I just hate Dreamweaver and think I shall skippy on to Barnes and Nobles to purchase me "Dreamweaver for Dum-Dums".

...oOo I LOVE Dumdums~!!!

OO!
I worked out yesterday for the first time in an attempt to be healthy and remain young.
IBC has individual TV for ellipticals now!!! <3 love it! I also popped a pimple that really hurt =( gross.


Look how cute!



Wow, I fully enjoyed writing this mindless blog <3

Sweet Sundays

"Deliver me out of the sadness
Deliver me from all the madness
Deliver me courage to guide me
Deliver me Your strength inside me"
-David Crowder Band, Deliver Me


It's been an exciting yet grueling Fall semester thus far.
I say 'grueling" because though my spirits are high, my physical body has been taking some hard hits. I'm sorry Body! =( Please forgive me for abusing your vitality. >.<

Rather than going into the details of the hardships my body has endured, I'd rather write about how amazing God is. Sadly, I wish I were justified in saying that I have persevered through all the challenges that God has laid before me, but I'm entitled to no such glory. Fact is, I've been slugging around just barely making the mark. The start was great, as always, yet the wear and tear started to really show (physically & mentally). The thought, "When will I be able to find rest?" would not discontinue its presence in my mind. The hours spent driving to and fro from one destination to the next, I've cried, laughed, praised, and questioned the God I love. I can't even count how many times I've asked him to keep me awake so that I could make it safely back home for just one more night...yet here I am, safe and sound. He has not abandoned me once while I drove to the places he led me to.

It's kind of scary when I think about it...
Falling asleep on the wheel while driving about 65+ mph on Route 76 (yes, watch out for a silver Toyota Camry, people!), waking up not remembering how you got to where you were...it reveals not only weakness in me, but that nothing is by my own strength, not even my safety!
God is good and merciful to the weary and brokenhearted <3

It's been quite a marathon this semester with numerous events taking place every weekend, heck~ every day! Someone in my Comp.Sci class said, "Fall semester always goes by faster than Spring"...and I must concur his thought. "Fast" doesn't even cut it. It's beyond a blur. If my days were a painting, it's as though someone decided to take bottles of all sorts of colors, forfeited the brush, poured the paint into his hands, and smeared it all over a canvas, THEN took some good ole' glitter, and rather then sprinkling the glitter, just unscrewed the cap and let it pour out in all its glory...mixing it all together to make the absolutely beautiful mess that I am. hehe~ I quite like that idea.

Honestly, it doesn't even matter that it's all quite a mess and a half. My days are not lived for myself. My prayer and hope is that as I hold onto the God whom I so dearly love, that He will do something with the days that I can barely remember. He is bigger than I am, bigger than my life, bigger than my moments of glory and shame. How could I ever restrict him to the limits of one day in the life of me? I am part of his grand plans. So, I'm still living, eating, breathing, praising Him <3

With all this...I have survived some stressful months, tiring days, laziness, drowning in my complaints...and here I am, today, Sunday, the day of rest. I could barely keep it together today leading worship. For that, God, I am so sorry. Deliver me.
I was out of my mind in sleepiness. Another glob of smeared paint...and when you should have completely torn my canvas in half, chucked it into a shredder, rebuking me, you decided to bring me home and find rest in you, just like you always do. <3

I am reminded of Isaiah as I write this:

"I have made you and I will carry you; I will sustain you and I will rescue you. To whom will you compare me or count me equal? To whom will you liken that we may be compared?...I am God, and there is no other; I am God, and there is none like me." -Isaiah 46:4-9


Deliver me <3